Well... it been awhile.

Been awhile since I last post.. and I had wanted to talk about General Conference because I was there in person for the first time

Before I get into that.. since I got back from Conference it has been on and off with working out, I got out of the habit. and getting back into it tomorrow.

Anyways.

I had an amazing time going to Conference, that weekend was awesome.. I went with two friends of mine from the YSA branch. Greg and Dan and then two other people came a day later. Dallin and Sterling they are brothers.

One thing I loved the most from the trip was actually being there in person for Conference, and when we all sang.. omgosh soooo many people singing you could feel the spirit so strongly.

We got there Friday and in the evening me and Greg we went to the Provo, Temple and were just walking around.. we were just talking about like God's timing.. and some about relationships and about finding the right girl and all that. I worry about it because I have Asperger's and having a relationship will be harder.. understanding the person and all that.. we talked about that.
It's hard to think there is actually a girl out there who is right for me.

I had the thought that even when I am done losing the weight.. that would give me some confidence but there is still Asperger's.  with relationships I see myself being a bad boyfriend.. just because it's hard to understand people, to interact more with them and if the person who I'm dating or whatever use body language to try to tell me something or anything like that and I don't understand it because of having AS that wouldn't be so good... o well this has became into a rant with having AS and relationship stuff ha..

I'm going to General Conference!

Well it's official I'm going to General Conference this October.. I'm so excited because it's my first time even going to Utah and I'm going with some friends of mine. I told them it's my first time going to Utah and they said we'll go to all the cool places, Temple Square etc. I'm sooo excited!

I am in the 280's which is good, once I get to the 260's I'll send in mission papers, hopefully it doesn't feel long, I don't think it will. I lost 14 pounds last month.
So yeah.. sorry for not posting for awhile.

But we'll be leaving on Thursday (or Friday) and coming home on Monday, I can't wait hah it's going to be so much fun.. road trip!

Other then that and Operation Slim I have been working at the movie theater (Carmike) and it's going good so far.. it's just job training now and hopefully once that is over they will actually hire me.. if so then that'd be so great!

Look forward to seeing pictures of me at temple square, Conference center, and just in Utah haha

A great day.

Hey readers, today has been an amazing day

On the 8th of August I started the program, which I named Operation Slim
It is now the first day of September (Wow, time goes by fast) and I have lost 12 pounds so far in this Operation.

I think I'll be ready sometime in October to send in papers... we'll see

Today was fast Sunday and I wanted to bear my testimony, this was probably only the 3rd time I had done so in the branch.. and I been going for a year and 2 months.
Earlier in the week I wanted to start writing poems again, as it have been closed to a year without writing one.. so I asked a good friend of mine what subject I should write about, and she told me about God's timing. So on Saturday night I was writing.. and it was done and ready in the morning to go along with my testimony.

At testimony meeting I got up, bore my testimony on God's timing.. said I had wanted to go when I was 19 and now I'm 20, and I talked about that I started the program on the 8th and had lost 12 pounds so far. some other things and in closing I shared my poem.

*His timing*
My dear child, don't you worry
You're not ready, I know what is best
You are in such a hurry
But in my timing, you shall be blessed.

At this moment
You're still learning
In my time you'll have fulfillment
At this moment, you are yearning

My child, if only you can see
My ways are higher then your ways
Then you would agree
Wouldn't see this as delays

In my timing, greater joy awaits you
I'm guiding you for purposes unknown now
When the time comes, you'll be able to see anew
You'll know why and how.

My child, my thoughts are higher then yours
Trust in my timing, trust in Me
It may take years
But I foresee
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So yeah, hah people loved it three people went up and in their testimonies they talked about me
Greg asked if he could write down the poem for himself, and yeah.. today was just amazing.
Also Brother Haws said that I have a special spirit and that people felt that when I read my poem

Endure to the end, stay strong in the Gospel and you won't regret it

Heavenly Father is leading me

Hey readers, I thought I would make an update about my mission papers and so on.

I have started the paper work, I'm so excited about that and hopefully it won't be much longer til I will actually have my call and know where I will go for the next two years.

The first and second counselors in my YSA Branch got released a couple weeks ago and then last week (not the 28th) President Haws called me on Saturday  and we met on Sunday to talk (He is one of the new counselors) We were talking about stuttering.. because I stutter and he used to stutter, worse then me actually and now he doesn't anymore. President Haws learned this thing to help people who stutter to stop stuttering and he'll be helping me with it.

Then when I was about to go home after church President Jensen (The Branch President) he called me and we were talking, he told me that he talked to President Call (The Stake President) and that he knows of a Doctor that'd be able to help me come up with a program for what to eat and what kind of exercise is best for me. This is amazing because I have been jogging but I probably can't go jogging anymore (or at least as much as I been doing) because I have really flat feet and they were causing a problems.

With that all happening on the same day, about a week after I started my mission papers is amazing. I know that Heavenly Father is leading me, he knows when the right time is for me to be on my mission, in my patriarchal blessing it says I'll be able to go on a fulltime mission at the appropriate time.
And all of this has happened since I started my papers.

Endure to the end stay strong in the Gospel and you won't regret it

Good news

I have some good news..

My branch president has signed me up for getting my mission papers ready, I'm excited for this as you can imagine, although I won't be sending them in for a little after I have finish them.

The reason is I still have weight to lose, but being able to start the papers is one big step. My plans of getting my call before the 3rd week of August will not work now, because some things has came up which I had no control over.. as in I needed to get some arch support for my shoes, because my feet are very flat and they were starting to hurt by jogging the 4.31 miles as you can imagine hah.

Another one is I could have a thyroid problem so no matter  how long or hard I work out, I will not lose weight, not until I see a Doctor and run some test.. I was taking some meds a couple of years ago because of thyroid but then the Dr wanted to test me without taking them and he never did, so I never took them since.

I hope it's not a thyroid problem because if it is then I need to wait until I'll be able to go see a Dr, so more waiting.

But being able to start my papers and do as much for them as possible will be great, and then I'll be able to send them in right when I get to the weight range where I would like to be 260-250 (Then I'll still have time to lose more weight while I'm waiting to leave, which can take  2+ months)

I know that everything will go well, that Heavenly Father is guiding  me, he knows when the perfect time for me to leave for my mission is.
Alma 36:3 "And now, O my son Helaman, behold thou art in thy youth, and therefore,  I beseech of thee that thou wilt hear my words and learn of me; for I do know that whosoever shall put their trust in God shall be supported in their trials, and their troubles, and their afflictions, and shall lifted up at the last day"

I watched this video on Mormon Message about trusting in the Lord, and although her story is not like mine, it is still the same thing.. to trust in the Lord

Endure to the end stay strong in the Gospel and you won't regret  it

Feeling a bit discourage

Hey readers, well it's the 23rd of June now... and I am still in the high 290's.
This last two weeks I have been doing everything right, been working out, 4.31 miles each day (probably only missed 2-3 days from those two weeks, not counting not working out on Sundays) and a couple times doing P90X aswell and eating right. I did lost one pound it showed for this week but later on in the week I gain it back.

This as you can imagine is really discouraging. I have talked to my mom about this and she told me the weight probably doesn't want to leave, so the weight I have lost turn into water (or something along those lines, I forgot) anyways and she said that by the 3rd or 4th week it will show I have lost a lot of weight and all will be fine...
I hope that this is what going on, because I want my mission call here before the 3rd Sunday of August, even if I'm only around 270 pounds I'll still send in my papers. it takes a couple of weeks for it to come and then I'll still have a couple of weeks before I even leave to go on my mission.

By the time I leave I hope I'll be around 250-230. but right now it is just all really discouraging

I won't be able to go jogging for a little while, my feet are flat and I have ruined my shoes, even though I have some arch supports now, it is to late for the shoes and they give me blisters etc by wearing them. I can still do P90X and eat healthy, which hopefully will work with losing weight.. I hope so, so much because it's July soon and then August and oh man it's just getting to close already and I'm still in the high 290's, I got to get to at least the 270's before I will send in my papers

Although I haven't lost weight (From what the scale tells me) I think my church pants fit a little better then before, I hope that is the case and it's not me thinking they do.

This is a really hard trial I'm going threw, by the end I'll grow in many different parts of life. but in the mist of this trial it is just really hard and I want out, I just want to be on my mission already. but all I can do is keep on working out.

Endure to the end stay strong in the Gospel and you won't regret it

As the days go by

As the days go by... I wonder if I'll be able to lose 30 pounds by the end of July.
There are 52 days and 30 pounds to lose.
To have my mission call come in August before the 3rd Sunday, when it's linger longer at the branch (A dinner we have at the YSA branch, on the 3rd Sunday of every month)
I would like to read my call at the linger longer.. to let everyone know from the branch where I have gotten my call to serve

Of course I'll be opening my call when it comes, with family and a couple of friends.. but I would like to announce it at the dinner.. I'm just worried that the 3rd week of August will be here sooner then I know it and I won't have lost the amount of weight which I would like to lose. I will work as hard as I can to lose weight each week, so far it has been going good. I have lost around 3-4 pounds this week

If I keep at it, and don't let the amount of days and weight discourage me I can do it... and I WILL do it. going on a mission will be amazing and getting my call will be awesome because it's one step closer.


I got a pair of workout clothes for my birthday (They are awesome :D) tomorrow I will use them.  On Saturdays some people from the YSA branch play basketball in the mornings so I'll be jogging to the building which is like a little over a mile and then play basketball.. I'm looking  forward to Saturdays

I need to believe in myself that I can do it, and I will do it. I said this in multiples posts but I just need to take it one day at a time, one week at a time and one month at a time.

Endure to the end, stay strong in the Gospel and you won't regret it

A working out experience.

I'll like to share an experience I had while I was sweating a lot during a P90X workout.

I'm trying to lose weight, and when I work out.. I sweat, when anyone work out they sweat. A friend of mine said "When you sweat it's the fat crying"
Now I'm overweight we all know that, I have fat.. pounds to lose.
I'm getting rid of the fat, I'm removing it away from me.

the experience I had was this.

You sweat, the fat cries.
You keep the commandments of God and being worthy and Satan "cries"
He wants to bring us down to where he is, he knows how to drag us down to where he is.

As I'm getting rid of the weight, the extra body fat, we must get rid of Satan and his grasp from us.
Everyone has body fat in order to live, we are all tempted by Satan. Why are we tempted by Satan?

D&C 29:39 "And it must needs be that the devil should tempt the children of men, or they can not be agents unto themselves; for if they never should have bitter they could not know the sweet"

As I'm working out, and eating less and eating foods I should that will get the pounds to go away
To get Satan to go away is this.

Hold on to the Iron Rod
Nephi 15:24 "And I said unto them that it was the word of God; and whoso would hearken unto the word of God, and would hold fast unto it, they would never perish; neither could the temptations and the fiery farts of the adversary overpower them until blindness, to lead them away to destruction."

To make it so Satan doesn't have power over us, we need to hold fast unto the words of God, we need to read the scriptures, we need to study, to ponder, we NEED to.

Alma 34:39 "Yea, and I also exhort you, my brethren, that ye be watchful unto prayer continually, that ye may not be led away by the temptations of the devil, that he may not overpower you, that ye may not become his subjects at the last day; for behold, he rewardeth you no good thing."

Ephesians 6:13 "Wherefore take unto you the whole armor  of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all to stand"

Stand against Satan, make it so he is there because he is real.. but that he won't have power over you
I'm losing the extra body fat so I can go on my my mission, so I can be happier in life.. so I can live life.
I'm removing as much as I can that will be healthy in the end.

Make our lives so Satan is scared of us, and therefore he will not tempt us because he knows he'll lose.
If we let our guard down, he will sneak attack us, he'll get us when we're not looking.
Always be on guard, if you slip and get off guarded don't worry.. there is Jesus Christ's Atonement
I'm not perfect.. no one is perfect expect for Jesus Christ himself, but we can strive to be perfect... we can strive to live as Jesus Christ lived.

I'm trying to be on guard, I'm trying to be the son my Heavenly Father sees in me.. I'm trying... and I'll keep on trying. I plan on reading my scriptures everyday, I have came up with something to do each week and I'll let you guys know what it is after I have done it for a month or two.

If you have fallen  and don't think you can ever be forgiven from your sins, I'll ask you to study the Atonement.. in the end you're love for Jesus Christ will grow for he truly did died for our sins, so we can live with him and our Heavenly Father again.. if you think you're not worthy to use the Atonement you do not know the Atonement. you do not understand it, if that is the case.. then  study it and use it, for it's a precious gift.

If we will work towards having power over Satan, his temptations will cease to bother us
As I work towards losing the extra body fat, it will go away.

Helaman 5:12 "And now my sons, remember, remember that is is upon the rock of our Redeemer, who is Christ the Son of God, that ye must build foundation, that when the devil shall send his forth his mighty winds, yea, his shafts in the whirlwinds, yea when all his hail and his mighty storm shall beat upon you, it shall have no power over you to drag you down to the gulf of misery and endless wo, because of the rock upon which ye are built, which is a sure foundation, a foundation whereon if men build they cannot fall"

Endure to the end, stay strong in the Gospel and you won't regret it

A year ago

Is it really two more days til I turn 20?. Wow....
If any of you would of asked what were my plans when I turned 19. I would of said finishing losing the weight, send  mission papers in August and then leave.

And now a year ahead, here I am.. not on my mission yet and although at first I was disappointed  about that.  I got discourage in 2012, I wasn't working out everyday in the week, which then lead to not working out for weeks at a time.
I tired to get back into working out couple of times, and each time it lead to the same thing.
when 2013 rolled around, my plan was to send my papers in April... that didn't worked out either.

But here are the good things that happened.
I made some amazing friends from the YSA branch
I kept the weight off which I have already lost
 A friend of mine  from the branch told me , he left late for his mission
if he were to leave when he turned 19, he would of been done with his "mission" before even leaving for his real mission, in his real mission he said there were people there that needed to hear the Gospel by him.
April of this year when I got discourage and was mad with myself for not leaving already
I had a feeling to read my Patriarchal blessing...
and in it said I would be able to serve a fulltime mission at the appropriate time
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By reading that I got so much peace.
I know I'll be able to go on my mission, it's not  at the time I had in mind, but rather it will be in Heavenly Father's time
Isaiah 55:8-9 "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord.
For as the Heavens are higher then the earth, so are my ways higher then your ways, and my thoughts then your thoughts"

I won't know until I go on my mission, but just some things I have thought about.
The mission age requirements have changed for the guys from 19 to 18. (note not recommended for everyone to go then, just getting that out there)
But maybe one of my companion(s) I'll have on my mission is one of the 18 year's old, or there's someone out there that needs to hear the Gospel from me and their not ready to hear it yet
or that there is just no room in the mission I'm suppose to be in.

My plan is to get my call in September, I have been working out and I have been losing weight, I have a good feeling that this is it :)
A friend of mine from the branch have worked out with me couple of times per week, not lately just because he has been busy a little.

Although I'm not 100% done with this trial, (I haven't left yet) I have seen blessings come of it, mostly the amazing friends I have gotten to know from the branch. if you're new to the blog and haven't read much of anything yet, I have Asperger's Syndrome and it's hard to be social, so being able to make and keep the friends I have here is amazing.

I know that Heavenly Father has a plan for everyone, he has a plan for  me and I'm going threw that plan, even at times when I  didn't know I was.
If things don't go you're way, keep going.. you wouldn't know at the time but God is leading you in life, he has a plan for you

Endure to the end, stay strong in the Gospel and you won't regret it :)

Five Hour Evaluation

Today I had a evaluation.. why did I need a evaluation?
Because I'm in this one program to help people with disabilities find and keep work and things like that.
As you all know who been reading my blog, I have Asperger's Syndrome. The only documents we have saying I have AS is when I was 4 years old, so they wanted to update it
So here we are, today I had it.. it was long, a lot of testing, and questions..

I did good with the visual memory which I always do good with in tests, I scored like a 43 out of 50
I know I did bad with math and some of the reading. If I remember correctly he said the results should be around 9 pages (They didn't just do a evaluation for Asperger's but for everything it seems like)
I'm kind of nervous for what the results will show.. like 9 pages of results?

One part he just had me read some stuff and he listen to how I pronounce the words.

It is hard at times, having AS but I try to see it as a gift, somedays that is very hard to do. when I see other people, my peers just being able to be so socially. I am so grateful for the amazing friends I do have.

Update-- 4/5/13

Well... I haven't been blogging for awhile hah sorry yet again.

Last Wednesday I got my wisdom teeth remove (all 4 of them) the pain is gone, so it's all good.
I hope to get my papers in soon... (geez, how long have I been saying that?) but I'll be starting on the papers once I lose 10 more pounds, then once I lose 20-25 more  pounds then I'll  send my papers in. If I start within 10 pounds from now then I'll  do all the paper work I can do then just leave some small parts when I get to 20-25 pounds lost.
Like getting an interview with my stake president, taking a picture to send in with the papers etc.

A friend of mine from the single branch will be coming over once or twice a week to work out. lifting  weights or go hike badger mountain, we have already worked out once but then I had my wisdom teeth taken out and this weekend is General Conference so we're waiting for next week. I'll be working out on the other days

Last night (Thursday) there was a branch dinner at the union building (the stake center) it's about 2 miles and a half away from where I live, so I though I would go for a walk/jog it was nice and sunny when I left the house. Half way there it started to rain and rain some more, my shirt was soaking wet.
It was pretty funny I though hah

I'm really excited for General Conference, I love listening to the talks. I get counsel and guidance
If you go to Conference with a question.. it will be answered. during the last General Conference I had a question and it was answered.

Endure to the end, stay strong in the Gospel and you won't regret it

Update 2/20/13

oh wow, it's the 20th of February already?, time is going by fast and April is getting closer.

I got to admit last week wasn't a good week... I only worked out a couple of times and weight went up as well. but this week I been working out and lost 2lbs already. I been watching videos of people opening they're mission calls, I can't wait until it's my turn!.

I been trying to figure out where I'll be going on my mission but I still have no clue hah, anywhere God needs me I'll go. by April I should lose 70lbs in total which is pretty amazing. I'll look even more different by then.

I been enjoying my mission prep classes and the YSA branch.. I should be studying the  scriptures more, I haven't read any for a couple of days and I really should.... so I'll do it today :)

Still trying to find a job, I applied at Taco Bell and Carl Jr, even though I didn't really want to work fast foods.. I need a job, I need the money so I'll take it. no luck so far I tired calling to check up and got nothing. Hopefully I'll get one of the jobs they are hiring so you would think I would already gotten it.

Here is a Mormon message youth video, I love them even though I'm not a "youth" anymore but I think they're just amazing. this one is about the Atonement

Ordain an Elder

This past Sunday I was ordain to the Melchizedek Priesthood.
one big step towards my mission, which I plan on having my papers in by April :) I am so excited for what 2013 will bring, I know that this is the year that I'll leave for my mission I wanted to of left back in 2012 as a lot of my friends were leaving.

I have been worrying about leaving late, I'll be leaving when I'm 20 (weird to think I'll be 20 in May) but couple days ago I  was reading my Patriarchal blessing and it said, at the appropriate time I'll be called to fulfill a mission.

At the appropriate time.. that really stood out to me, I am glad I read my blessing because leaving "late" has been on my mind but it doesn't matter when I leave, the only thing that matter is I'm still going

I know that Heavenly Father is watching out for me, and for everyone else, I'm thankful for my Savior and for the Atonement which was made possible by Him.

 
                                     
Endure to the end, stay strong in the Gospel and you won't regret it

99 days

There are 99 days until May... I got like 47 pounds until I'm at 250, at 250 I'll be starting on my papers I know I'll be able to lose 47 pounds before May, it will be really hard to get there but it'd be so worth it.
One day at a time, just need to keep that in mind.... a day at a time.
I'm still looking for a job, places where I had applied were hiring but didn't hire me I want to get as much money as I can to help out for my mission
during the holidays I got lazy and didn't do much working out, then I was sick last week. so starting today is the time to go... 99days :)

99days to lose 47, heck I think I'll be able to lose a bit more before May which would be awesome, right as I get close to 250 (couple pounds away) I'll start on my mission papers!!!

I'm so excited for this year, I'm getting the Melchizedek Priesthood this Sunday need to keep in mind what is ahead for me.. need to study more a lot more then what I have been doing which wasn't much.

man, I can't wait to know where I'll be going and WHEN! :D
Here is an amazing video from Mormon Messages

Endure to the end, stay strong in the Gospel and you won't regret  it 

Mission in mind

My goal of going on a mission is still there, it have never left.. I plan on leaving before May or during May
Yes my 20th birthday is May 31st, did I wanted to leave this late?, of course not but at least I'm going, that is something I have figured out.. it would of been nice to of leave in the summer of 2012 with a lot of my friends leaving around the same time.

But I'm still going so that counts for it all, I have a friend that is leaving for his mission soon, two weeks before his 20th birthday. his so excited and happy to go, and same for him.. he would of liked to of left early but hey, the mission will still be the same and so it will be for me :)

I have a lot of friends who have been called to foreign speaking missions, such as Italy, Thailand. Brazil,   and one in Ukraine.
I would love to go foreign speaking, I think I might be called to go foreign... that may just be my own feeling though.

When I was thinking of where I'll be called to serve I remember this talk couple years ago during the Priesthood session  of General Conference April 2010
The Divine Call of a Mission
Watch or read the talk, it is simply amazing

 I know that wherever I go, foreign speaking or state side. It is because Heavenly Father has it all planned out for me, he knows which mission will best be for me.
Another great talk that I love is this one The Opportunity of a lifetime

I got a couple of friends on the internet that I'm close with and I have talked to them about leaving to go on  a mission soon a lot of them think it's really cool that I'll be doing this and I have talked to a couple of them about my church and what we believe in.
They can't wait to hear where I'll be going either!, haha a couple of them keep on asking me if I have started on my papers and when I'm leaving, they ask how the weight is going as well.
I have told them of places my friends are serving and where my friends have been called to serve.
I can't wait to tell them where I'll be going and when!.

Endure to the end, stay strong in the Gospel and you won't regret it! :)