Hey readers, well it been 30 days since I started my plan.. and I liked the plan I made for myself, my church clothes are fitting better, there's room in my church pants, shirt too but more room in my pants.
I'll keep doing the plan until I get to the weight where I'll be happy at, I been gaining muscle and drinking water a lot so the scale haven't changed a whole lot.. but hey clothes fitting better that's all what matters for now
Church has been amazing this week and the fireside we had for some wards in my stake (we're apart of a test program the church have asked us, along with 4 other stakes to be apart of it) and I been loving the program so much..
the stakes are from FL, UT, WA-(My stake) and one in the Philippines... I think there's one more but I cannot remember where it's located at.
I been gaining a testimony on reading the scriptures, I feel very much at peace when I do read
Sorry for not posting for a little while and just jamming in working out and church in one post, I'll post again soon on more church base things, probably a topic I have research and taught myself about.
Endure to the end, stay strong in the gospel and you won't regret it
Monday, October 31, 2011
Sunday, October 23, 2011
The life of Asperger's (At least for me)
Readers,
I would like to share with you what Asperger's Syndrome is to me in my life
First of all, Asperger's is a high functioning autism
First of all, Asperger's is a high functioning autism
As the title says (At least for me) the reason behind that is because people with Asperger's won't share 100% of the same symptoms, two people aren't alike with Asperger's.
But in every case, you'll have someone who wants to be social (me) and people with Asperger's who are a bit of anti-social.
As I go on just something you should know, someone with Asperger's is called an Aspie for short, and Asperger's Syndrome is refer to as AS.
Asperger's interests: people with AS may develop an intense, almost obsessive, interest in a few areas, such as sports schedules, weather, or maps... my "obsessive" interest is World War Two, I love learning about it, last year for my birthday I only asked for ww2 books and that what I got, I got a couple in my room
Problems with social skills: people with AS generally have difficulty interacting with one another and are awkward in social situations. They generally do not make friends easily, it's hard to keep eye contact.. I don't even know how to explain it.. when I was younger I could not look someone in the eyes, now being 18 years old, I'm better with it, I can keep eye contact for a short amount of time, it gets better ever so often.
Many aspie teens are enjoying each other's company through Internet chatrooms, forums and message boards, I have joined a message board myself and I did enjoy talking to people who could relate to me, how I was feeling etc.
In the teenage years the person may become acutely aware of a lack genuine friendship and exclusion from the social activities of their peers. They may become depressed
Another concern is an assumption made by the person with Asperger's Syndrome that if they like someone, then the other person has the same degree of commitment. They may not recognize the other person's signals of a casual or platonic friendships
Loneliness and friendships: Aspie teens typically become more isolated socially during a period when they crave friendships and inclusion more than ever, Aspies often face rejection, isolation and bullying
I never been bullied before but.. rejection, yes same with isolation
as Aspies go through adolescence, most realize that they are missing out by not fitting in. It is at this point in their lives that they crave friendships, yet this unfulfilled desire on top of high school pressure to conform, constant rejection and harassment can often cause clinical depression in Aspie teens. They grow more isolated even as they crave more interaction with others. Young Aspie children often believe everyone in their kindergarten is the same and everyone is a friend. Aspie teens know better... yes sadly we do know better once we're teens and look around at others.
Having Asperger's is very hard at times, and I wish I can live without it.. but something I have learn is it's who I am.. and I can't change that, I just wish I could be better with interacting with others
This video has helped me a lot, I watched it at a fireside when I was in the back of the room sitting by myself
As I go on just something you should know, someone with Asperger's is called an Aspie for short, and Asperger's Syndrome is refer to as AS.
Asperger's interests: people with AS may develop an intense, almost obsessive, interest in a few areas, such as sports schedules, weather, or maps... my "obsessive" interest is World War Two, I love learning about it, last year for my birthday I only asked for ww2 books and that what I got, I got a couple in my room
Problems with social skills: people with AS generally have difficulty interacting with one another and are awkward in social situations. They generally do not make friends easily, it's hard to keep eye contact.. I don't even know how to explain it.. when I was younger I could not look someone in the eyes, now being 18 years old, I'm better with it, I can keep eye contact for a short amount of time, it gets better ever so often.
Many aspie teens are enjoying each other's company through Internet chatrooms, forums and message boards, I have joined a message board myself and I did enjoy talking to people who could relate to me, how I was feeling etc.
In the teenage years the person may become acutely aware of a lack genuine friendship and exclusion from the social activities of their peers. They may become depressed
Another concern is an assumption made by the person with Asperger's Syndrome that if they like someone, then the other person has the same degree of commitment. They may not recognize the other person's signals of a casual or platonic friendships
Loneliness and friendships: Aspie teens typically become more isolated socially during a period when they crave friendships and inclusion more than ever, Aspies often face rejection, isolation and bullying
I never been bullied before but.. rejection, yes same with isolation
as Aspies go through adolescence, most realize that they are missing out by not fitting in. It is at this point in their lives that they crave friendships, yet this unfulfilled desire on top of high school pressure to conform, constant rejection and harassment can often cause clinical depression in Aspie teens. They grow more isolated even as they crave more interaction with others. Young Aspie children often believe everyone in their kindergarten is the same and everyone is a friend. Aspie teens know better... yes sadly we do know better once we're teens and look around at others.
many Aspies are too anxious to initiate social contact... there for I'm always the quiet one in the room, it takes time for me to feel comfortable with talking to someone, but once I get comfortable we have a good time talking.
For years I have told myself I'm a freak "I don't get invited to parties cause i'm a freak" "No one really talks to me cause i'm a freak" etc.. I gave myself labels growing up as a teen was so hard.. but it's getting better.. and I have myself a label now, along with others.. and it's "A Child of God" we are all children of our Heavenly Father, don't forget that!... I hadHaving Asperger's is very hard at times, and I wish I can live without it.. but something I have learn is it's who I am.. and I can't change that, I just wish I could be better with interacting with others
This video has helped me a lot, I watched it at a fireside when I was in the back of the room sitting by myself
Update-10/23/11
Readers, here is an update with working out
I weighed myself today, it has been two weeks and a half, seeing I was sick for part of the 2nd week
I looked down at the number and just got so mad and thought it will never work.. I lost 5lbs.. but today at church when I got behide the sacrament table.. I noticed something.. I got in without me touching the table or the back when I tired to "squeeze" to the beach, that made my feelings of giving up go away
A good friend of mine said to me, "Satan knows my goal to loose the weight to be able to serve my mission, so if he can stop me from loosing weight he can stop me from going on a mission"
Good luck Satan, but you got to try harder then that.. I been hitting the books so good luck!, can't wait until I can go out and serve.
endure to the end, stay strong in the gospel and you won't regret it
I weighed myself today, it has been two weeks and a half, seeing I was sick for part of the 2nd week
I looked down at the number and just got so mad and thought it will never work.. I lost 5lbs.. but today at church when I got behide the sacrament table.. I noticed something.. I got in without me touching the table or the back when I tired to "squeeze" to the beach, that made my feelings of giving up go away
A good friend of mine said to me, "Satan knows my goal to loose the weight to be able to serve my mission, so if he can stop me from loosing weight he can stop me from going on a mission"
Good luck Satan, but you got to try harder then that.. I been hitting the books so good luck!, can't wait until I can go out and serve.
endure to the end, stay strong in the gospel and you won't regret it
Thursday, October 20, 2011
P90X-Yoga
Well.... yoga is my least favorite work out.. it's 30mins more then any of the other works out, so a total of a hour and a half
Plus it's pretty hard doing yoga when you're like.. over weight, it's more difficult and I can only do about 20 moves from the workout, the rest of the workouts I can handle.. but yoga I just hate it so much.... right now that is I guess.
But my clothes have been fitting better, so that is good.. I'll be doing my first weigh-in this Sunday
Yesterday at mutual the priest quorum were carving pumpkins, we made some cookies to deliver to a family along with the carved pumpkins, we made extra cookies so we could have some too.. it was hard to follow my 30 day plan there, smelling the cookies and seeing them but I was able to stick with my plan and I felt good afterwards.
I been drinking water and one cup of milk each day since I started my 30 day plan.. as things to drink, I been eating of course, I drink around 4-5+ cups of water in the day.. will be getting some protein shake mix soon..
I'm excited for the weigh in and wonder what my number will be
Monday, October 17, 2011
Week two results
Hey guys, well as the title says.. here are some results so far (yayyay!)
When I went on trek then I wore a blue shirt everyday, I did had an extra shirt but it was to tight for trekking so I just wore it on the last day, the shirt that was to tight now fits very comfortable, the blue shirt there's a lot of room when I wear it now!, this picture kinda looks bad but I hope you're able to see the results, it only been two weeks of working out too so.
When I went on trek then I wore a blue shirt everyday, I did had an extra shirt but it was to tight for trekking so I just wore it on the last day, the shirt that was to tight now fits very comfortable, the blue shirt there's a lot of room when I wear it now!, this picture kinda looks bad but I hope you're able to see the results, it only been two weeks of working out too so.
Trek-The Rescue Through Christ
Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart; and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light- Matthew 11:28-30
As I met my trek family I was glad I knew at least someone in it
When we started to trek all was well for me, just the path seem forever when you try looking up and see companies way ahead of you and they weren't even done trekking for the day
As we stop for lunch, there was an reenactment.. something the man said made me realize deep down how hard the pioneers went threw.. "I was only allow to have 17 pounds of supplies to bring with me, do you know how much 17 pounds is?, that's my set of scriptures, a violin and a change of clothes"
When I heard this.. I tired not to cry thinking of how hard they went threw, I had never really thought of it to much.
When we got to our camp site later that day.. I was so exhausted and my feet were in so much pain, I pulled off my shoes and saw a couple of blisters.. I went to get them bandaged up, I told my family about it and the next day we took some more stops for my feet.. I felt like I was a burden to my family
If I wasn't pushing the handcart I would fall behind of my family because I would take fewer steps the pain was just so much... when I was pushing the handcart I tired to think of how pioneers had done it, and that helped with the pain somewhat
When we stop for lunch for the 2nd day, it was a nice rest.. but when it was time to start trekking after 30mins... I just couldn't I was in pain by just standing up, when I was helping gather our supplies to put in our handcart I told my Pa that I was sorry but I cannot finish the last couple of miles for today, I stopped the tears before they came.. I didn't want anyone to see me like this...
I was then driven to base camp, the whole time I looked out the window of the truck... my hat down so no one could see me... I was to ashamed with myself.
Before leaving to head up to camp with the cooks, I helped clean the buckets that lunch was in.. I felt good for helping them.
Later in the evening, there was a program leading up to getting a letter from home from your parents.. mine was by my mom and I loved every bit of it.. it almost made me cry while I read it... tonight while I read it tonight it did made me cry.. and I love it even more..
That night when I got in my tent to sleep... I begged, I pleaded with my Father in Heaven, I told him I need the strength to finish the trek in the morning, I could not finish it on my own.. with tears in my eyes for the first time at trek.. I finished my prayer, asking and pleading for him to watch over the women in my company, that they would be able to do the women pull in the morning, without much difficultly..
When I woke up the next day.. I could hardly stand up in my tent without falling.. I took my bucket and walk towards the medical tent where they bandage my feet.. a priest from my ward saw me walking and took my bucket we walked to the medical tent together.. once there he took my meal supplies and went and got my breakfast for me.. the person bandaging up my feet is an Brother from my ward, I was glad he was working on my feet, we talked about how trek been going so far
It was then time for my company to start trekking we were the first to start that day.. my feet were still in pain, once we were a half of a mile into trekking the pain went away and did so for a long time, I was able to keep up with my family this time
Once we got to the women pull... all the young men went ahead of them to the top of the hill.. where we had a short lesson, while trekking up the hill I talked to my Pa and someone else who was walking with us.. I said "Why can't the men help the women?" the man said to me "Why?, you feel sorry for them and want to help them?" I said yes.. the man said "Good, you're suppose to feel that way" and he smiled. it was hard not to cry again here..
Once they got to the top the young men were allow to help push the rest of the way, once my company got there I started to push along with them
We all rest for a little bit then we had the chance of taking off our shoes and wearing potatoes sacks to get a feel of what the pioneers had to go threw, I was taking mine off and my Ma, some trek sisters and others were worried for me, even my own sister from my company.. but I did it for the half of a mile, I fell behind of course walking on the dirt with rocks and no shoes with blisters.
After lunch we headed onward!, onward every onward, now I began to fall behind, my feet were in pain from the blisters yet again.. when I fell behind my family yelled my name and I started to run to them, passing other families in my company, me and my Pa running to catch up.. our family stop for me.. this happened a couple more times and each time it did more and more people would shout and cheer me on.. it felt amazing to do that, once we got to eye view to Zion I took my family flag, waved it high in the air and we all ran into Zion!
Later that evening we had testimony meetings as a company... such a powerful meeting it was, I got up bored my testimony, on prayer and I testify of it.. my old stake 1st or 2nd counselor (My stake slip last year) thanked me for sharing my testimony... I really enjoy that night. I'm glad I went on trek.. was a testimony builder for me, every single time I looked down at my bandaged feet.. I thought of the pioneers and the frostbit they suffer threw.
Readers, endure to the end, stay strong in the gospel and you won't regret it
As I met my trek family I was glad I knew at least someone in it
When we started to trek all was well for me, just the path seem forever when you try looking up and see companies way ahead of you and they weren't even done trekking for the day
As we stop for lunch, there was an reenactment.. something the man said made me realize deep down how hard the pioneers went threw.. "I was only allow to have 17 pounds of supplies to bring with me, do you know how much 17 pounds is?, that's my set of scriptures, a violin and a change of clothes"
When I heard this.. I tired not to cry thinking of how hard they went threw, I had never really thought of it to much.
When we got to our camp site later that day.. I was so exhausted and my feet were in so much pain, I pulled off my shoes and saw a couple of blisters.. I went to get them bandaged up, I told my family about it and the next day we took some more stops for my feet.. I felt like I was a burden to my family
If I wasn't pushing the handcart I would fall behind of my family because I would take fewer steps the pain was just so much... when I was pushing the handcart I tired to think of how pioneers had done it, and that helped with the pain somewhat
When we stop for lunch for the 2nd day, it was a nice rest.. but when it was time to start trekking after 30mins... I just couldn't I was in pain by just standing up, when I was helping gather our supplies to put in our handcart I told my Pa that I was sorry but I cannot finish the last couple of miles for today, I stopped the tears before they came.. I didn't want anyone to see me like this...
I was then driven to base camp, the whole time I looked out the window of the truck... my hat down so no one could see me... I was to ashamed with myself.
Before leaving to head up to camp with the cooks, I helped clean the buckets that lunch was in.. I felt good for helping them.
Later in the evening, there was a program leading up to getting a letter from home from your parents.. mine was by my mom and I loved every bit of it.. it almost made me cry while I read it... tonight while I read it tonight it did made me cry.. and I love it even more..
That night when I got in my tent to sleep... I begged, I pleaded with my Father in Heaven, I told him I need the strength to finish the trek in the morning, I could not finish it on my own.. with tears in my eyes for the first time at trek.. I finished my prayer, asking and pleading for him to watch over the women in my company, that they would be able to do the women pull in the morning, without much difficultly..
When I woke up the next day.. I could hardly stand up in my tent without falling.. I took my bucket and walk towards the medical tent where they bandage my feet.. a priest from my ward saw me walking and took my bucket we walked to the medical tent together.. once there he took my meal supplies and went and got my breakfast for me.. the person bandaging up my feet is an Brother from my ward, I was glad he was working on my feet, we talked about how trek been going so far
It was then time for my company to start trekking we were the first to start that day.. my feet were still in pain, once we were a half of a mile into trekking the pain went away and did so for a long time, I was able to keep up with my family this time
Once we got to the women pull... all the young men went ahead of them to the top of the hill.. where we had a short lesson, while trekking up the hill I talked to my Pa and someone else who was walking with us.. I said "Why can't the men help the women?" the man said to me "Why?, you feel sorry for them and want to help them?" I said yes.. the man said "Good, you're suppose to feel that way" and he smiled. it was hard not to cry again here..
Once they got to the top the young men were allow to help push the rest of the way, once my company got there I started to push along with them
We all rest for a little bit then we had the chance of taking off our shoes and wearing potatoes sacks to get a feel of what the pioneers had to go threw, I was taking mine off and my Ma, some trek sisters and others were worried for me, even my own sister from my company.. but I did it for the half of a mile, I fell behind of course walking on the dirt with rocks and no shoes with blisters.
After lunch we headed onward!, onward every onward, now I began to fall behind, my feet were in pain from the blisters yet again.. when I fell behind my family yelled my name and I started to run to them, passing other families in my company, me and my Pa running to catch up.. our family stop for me.. this happened a couple more times and each time it did more and more people would shout and cheer me on.. it felt amazing to do that, once we got to eye view to Zion I took my family flag, waved it high in the air and we all ran into Zion!
Later that evening we had testimony meetings as a company... such a powerful meeting it was, I got up bored my testimony, on prayer and I testify of it.. my old stake 1st or 2nd counselor (My stake slip last year) thanked me for sharing my testimony... I really enjoy that night. I'm glad I went on trek.. was a testimony builder for me, every single time I looked down at my bandaged feet.. I thought of the pioneers and the frostbit they suffer threw.
Readers, endure to the end, stay strong in the gospel and you won't regret it
Saturday, October 15, 2011
My plan for 30 days
Hello readers,
As I was working out today doing P90X, it felt so good!... I was sick for three days and couldn't work out and was finally able to get back to sweating the fat off!.
My baby sister who will be 4 this month, she likes to come and do exercise with me, I do enjoy the company and she's so funny trying to do it with me
My plan for 30 days is not eating/drinking anything bad for me, example: cookies, ice cream, any kind of juice, soda, (even diet soda), chips, bananas and grapes (Which are some of the sweetest fruits there is with sugar)
Even Sunday day cereal, in my family on Sunday mornings we have cereal which is like chocolate pebbles etc. it's fast and easy for getting to church that starts at 9am!.
My mom bake some cinnamon rolls for Saturday breakfast, won't have any tomorrow!, we'll see how this 30 days will go.. I'm thinking once I reach day 30, I will keep doing it until my weight is where I want it to be. When I reach day 15, I'll update on how my plan is going, until then
Remember readers.. endure to the end, stay strong and you won't regret it
As I was working out today doing P90X, it felt so good!... I was sick for three days and couldn't work out and was finally able to get back to sweating the fat off!.
My baby sister who will be 4 this month, she likes to come and do exercise with me, I do enjoy the company and she's so funny trying to do it with me
My plan for 30 days is not eating/drinking anything bad for me, example: cookies, ice cream, any kind of juice, soda, (even diet soda), chips, bananas and grapes (Which are some of the sweetest fruits there is with sugar)
Even Sunday day cereal, in my family on Sunday mornings we have cereal which is like chocolate pebbles etc. it's fast and easy for getting to church that starts at 9am!.
My mom bake some cinnamon rolls for Saturday breakfast, won't have any tomorrow!, we'll see how this 30 days will go.. I'm thinking once I reach day 30, I will keep doing it until my weight is where I want it to be. When I reach day 15, I'll update on how my plan is going, until then
Remember readers.. endure to the end, stay strong and you won't regret it
Thursday, October 13, 2011
Life trials, brings out our strengths
Dear readers, whoever you might be..
I been thinking of trials lately and how can they bring out our strengths?, trials can be short term and long term, I have had both and I'm sure all of you have had them as well, if not then how could we be human?, we were all choice spirits in Heaven were we lived with our Father and his son. We begged to come to earth to receive our mortal bodies.. we knew when we came to earth there would be trials facing us, we knew we would struggle, but we still begged for the bodies, we wanted to be like our Heavenly Father and his son.. I can see myself being there as a choice spirit begging and crying for my body, I knew when I came to earth I would have the trials I do now, learning disabilities and Aspager's.. etc.
let look at short term trials.. and this is just an example when I was doing trek this year, by the 2nd day I had seven or eight blisters.. and my feet were in so much pain that I could not finish the last couple of miles for that day, I was driven to base camp, later that night when I was in my tent.. I begged to my Heavenly Father that I would be able to finish the trek strong in the morning.. I woke up and tired standing in the tent.. I about fell down.. I forced myself to get up, after getting some breakfast I headed to my family and company, our company was the first to start trekking, my feet hurt for the first half of a mile, then I was able to keep up with my family... it was a testimony builder for prayer.
Long term example: Having Aspager's and growing up.. I was friendless for fifteen years, it was very hard for me, I felt alone all the time, did anyone even love me?... but that has taught me something that is my strength from this trial, it's being there for anyone I know what it feels like to be alone, the outcast, I don't want anyone to feel that way, I'll be a true friend, like all the friends I have made over the years.
At times.. I have those bad days and think I'm all alone.. D&C: 121-7-9 is one of my favorite scripture
7:My son, peace be unto thy soul; thine adversity and thine afflictions shall be but a small moment;
8: And then, if thou endure it well, God shall exalt thee on high; thou shalt triumph over all thy foes.
9:Thy friends do stand by thee, and they shall hail thee again with warm hearts and friendly hands.
I feel much love and peace from my Heavenly Father when I read this.. remember readers... Endure to the end, stay strong, and you won't regret it
I been thinking of trials lately and how can they bring out our strengths?, trials can be short term and long term, I have had both and I'm sure all of you have had them as well, if not then how could we be human?, we were all choice spirits in Heaven were we lived with our Father and his son. We begged to come to earth to receive our mortal bodies.. we knew when we came to earth there would be trials facing us, we knew we would struggle, but we still begged for the bodies, we wanted to be like our Heavenly Father and his son.. I can see myself being there as a choice spirit begging and crying for my body, I knew when I came to earth I would have the trials I do now, learning disabilities and Aspager's.. etc.
let look at short term trials.. and this is just an example when I was doing trek this year, by the 2nd day I had seven or eight blisters.. and my feet were in so much pain that I could not finish the last couple of miles for that day, I was driven to base camp, later that night when I was in my tent.. I begged to my Heavenly Father that I would be able to finish the trek strong in the morning.. I woke up and tired standing in the tent.. I about fell down.. I forced myself to get up, after getting some breakfast I headed to my family and company, our company was the first to start trekking, my feet hurt for the first half of a mile, then I was able to keep up with my family... it was a testimony builder for prayer.
Long term example: Having Aspager's and growing up.. I was friendless for fifteen years, it was very hard for me, I felt alone all the time, did anyone even love me?... but that has taught me something that is my strength from this trial, it's being there for anyone I know what it feels like to be alone, the outcast, I don't want anyone to feel that way, I'll be a true friend, like all the friends I have made over the years.
At times.. I have those bad days and think I'm all alone.. D&C: 121-7-9 is one of my favorite scripture
7:My son, peace be unto thy soul; thine adversity and thine afflictions shall be but a small moment;
8: And then, if thou endure it well, God shall exalt thee on high; thou shalt triumph over all thy foes.
9:Thy friends do stand by thee, and they shall hail thee again with warm hearts and friendly hands.
I feel much love and peace from my Heavenly Father when I read this.. remember readers... Endure to the end, stay strong, and you won't regret it
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