Three Days To Three Months

Three days.... three weeks.... three months

I was in the habit of reading pretty much daily, and even listen to General Conference talks during those days as well. When I was in the habit, I felt great.

I know I'm not the only one who has lost this habit of reading, praying and so forth in their lives.

Be it going through a really tough trial or addiction, that we face, that is when we need to hold onto reading, praying, daily.

I lost track of reading and I would check on my Gospel Library app (For those who don't know, this is an app that has all of the scriptures on it, teaching manuals, hymns, pretty much anything you can think of for the church, you don't even need to be a Mormon to use it, so feel free to go and install it)

I would noticed the last time I read, which was a couple of days, didn't check it for sometime, so that number went into the weeks... and when I saw it again, it started to get into the months and then I saw it at three months.

During this whole time I didn't felt great, I knew what I should of been doing, but I felt like I was not "worthy" to read or pray, but whenever you read, at least for me you feel a lot better, your day just turn into a good day, even if you have some bumps along the way for that day.

scripture time:

2nd Nephi 32:8-9 "And now, my beloved brethren, I perceive that ye ponder still in your hearts; and it grieveth me that I must speak concerning this thing. For if ye would hearken unto the Spirit which teacheth a man to pray, ye would know that ye must pray; for the evil spirit teacheth not a man to pray, but teacheth him that he must not pray.

 9 But behold, I say unto you that ye must pray always, and not faint; that ye must not perform any thing unto the Lord save in the first place ye shall pray unto the Father in the name of Christ, that he will consecrate thy performance unto thee, that thy performance may be for the welfare of thy soul."

Satan is good at what he does, he know how to make you feel like you don't matter in the sight of God, or need I say, in the sight of anyone.

He doesn't want you to develop those habits, because he knows if you do, he most likely will not have power over you.

Helaman 5:12 "And now, my sons, remember, remember that it is upon the rock of our Redeemer, who is Christ, the Son of God, that ye must build your foundation; that when the devil shall send forth his mighty winds, yea, his shafts in the whirlwind, yea, when all his hail and his mighty storm shall beat upon you, it shall have no power over you to drag you down to the gulf of misery and endless wo, because of the rock upon which ye are built, which is a sure foundation, a foundation whereon if men build they cannot fall."

I'm going to start reading General Conference talks daily, like what I was doing earlier, because along with reading scriptures and praying, reading a talk daily made me even more happy and gave me more peace,

My recent tab in the app for where I left off with reading, now says "16 hours ago" instead of "3 months ago" so it still means I need to read for today, but having it to 16 hours ago vs 3 months ago is a big improvement. So no matter where you are, go forward and get into those habits again.

Endure to the end, stay strong in the Gospel and you won't regret it

 

  

A Small Rant?- Friendboat vs Friendship

This last week was pretty fun, I went on a YSA camp out, hung out with some people from the branch, some fun conversations, me and some *friends*... I struggle at times with knowing if someone is a friend or a acquaintance

Maybe it has something to do with lack of social knowledge, people I know back in my old ward in Pasco, I know their my friends, because they have mentioned it before

There are some people in the branch, who I have just given the label "Friend" because whenever we see each other, we have  some conversations. 

But then again, when I'm having one of "Those days" because of Aspergers, I debate with the label friend... here I'll expound on this.

When I hear the word friendship, it means to me that you see  this person often and or you talk to this person regularly, 

Aghh... writing this blog, I'm trying not to offend anyone

Alright, looks like it's that time of the blog again... "Shout out to Levi" as Levi calls them haha.

We're friends, his one of the people I've just given the label too at the start, didn't really know if we were actually friends or not, we talked a couple times throughout the week, crack jokes etc. 

But for a good while, I wasn't sure if we were friends or not, I'm glad to know that he was really thankful of when he moved here a year and some months ago, that I started a conversation up with him, as I was handing out the bulletins before sacrament meeting started and then went and sat by him. 

I normally don't do that, because it's getting out of my comfort zone a lot, but that day I just happened to do it and I'm glad I did.

During the camp out, I hung out with a group of people from my branch, that was nice.. just to be in the company of some people. I don't talk a whole lot in groups but I also had some moments

one of them were doing the chubby bunny game, you basically see how many marshmallows you can fit into your mouth, one got 9 and they were saying how it was my turn, my plan was to win and get past 9, which I did.. I got 10 hah, later that night.. the person who got 9, someone put candy in front of him and he said "Well it's in front of me, I guess I'll have to eat it now" so I grabbed the bag where we spit the marshmallows into and put it in front of him, then everyone laughed and he threw the bag away haha...

I hope I didn't bugged anyone from this group I hang out with, I was wondering that during the weekend, would they be annoyed if I tag along

I would say though, that I have a harder time with knowing if a female is a acquaintance or friend, mostly every guy I talk to at the branch I have given the friend label at some point or another.

At times they feel more like friendboats and not friendships. 

a friendship, you actually hang out with this person sometimes, I was pretty nervous for when my friend Brittion came for my birthday, we hadn't seen each other since 2011 at efy, but the spending time together went quite good.. my friend Mitchell who's on his mission right now, we would spend time with each other a couple of times before he left, I was worried with how the  one on one would be like, because I never experienced that to a great deal before hand, it's something that went better then I had expected it to go

I must admit though... sometimes I do get jealous of people in the branch, being able to talk to each other  so freely, but having my little group of people I talk to weekly is nice, it's something I didn't always had in my old ward.

 didn't really had many people to hang out with, even now I don't go to many things other then church related activities. on the good note though, the 3 years being in Kennewick and the branch, I've been to more get together then my teen years, not a whole ton though.

I could probably go on more with talking about the sad and negativity of the past and all that... why should I though?.. so I'll just end it here.

I hope I didn't offend anyone from this post, if you already see us as being friends, that's great

I wasn't writing this post for pity either. 

The post just turned into a small rant about friends and acquaintances, I wonder if people without Aspergers struggle with these terms too, or does it just magically connect because their able to read each other so well?

Stay chill as a penguin everyone.

Endure to the end, stay strong in the Gospel and you won't regret it

New Poems

This poem is about eternal marriage, (a doctrine  in the  LDS church, that marriage does not end after death, but last threw the eternities, if you're sealed in the LDS Temples"

Until death do we part
Is that how God wanted marriage to end?
That after a life time with your love, everything will just fall apart?
No matter how unify you are, it won't extend

Writing on paper withers away
The power of the Priesthood is never ending
If we stay faithful, we'll be together again, past our final days
Marriage is unending

By your love for the rest of your life
This is God's plan
That death does not end, husband and wife
Hold faithful, that we may follow this plan
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Reversed poem, so once you get to the bottom, read it again from bottom going back to the top

The still small voice people say
Quietly spoken, a burning fire within
Stay close to His guidance, that he won't go away
A Warmth rushing threw your skin

He bears comfort, in the ups and downs
Bears witness of the Father and his Son
His there to protect us, listen to his sounds
Through him, we can be guided to help loved ones

By the laying of hands
We received this gift
He helps us to follow God's plans
The light of Christ helps to lift

By him, I can stand and say I believe
Through my testimony, I know this is true
By everything I've receive
This feeling is true

The Still small voice people say
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Chalk in hand, Let the art begin
Swiftly moving, the beauty within
One movement at a time
Rainbow on the skin

Drawing here and there
Thoughts on the cement
Surface once bare
The artist present

A new beginning
Staring at his art
Finding edges for thinning
He knows his colors by heart

Clouds turning shades, Keep on drawing
A smile upon his face
Rain starts falling
He knows his creation will be erased

But it's the memories which he'll keep
It what matters in this life
His morning's beauty sleep
Make the best of your life
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Poem about the temples

Holiness to the Lord
Is inscribed on every temple worldwide
We have this beacon, because the Gospel was restored
By living worthily we can go inside

Covenants and ordinances binds on earth and heaven above
People who have past and gone, can receive as well
That no soul may fall sort of, this is made possible by God's love
In the temples, God is able to dwell

Through those walls, we feel nothing but peace
Personal revelation ever clear
The spirit will not cease
We have nothing to fear

It's the closest we can be, to Heaven on earth
Strive to go often
That we may see our real worth
Our hearts may be soften

Each time we go
We learn something more
Every time we go through
Our faith soar
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Another reversed poem

Sunset, how magical you are
As bright as a golden star

Your reflections in the river
Overthrow my body with shivers


I'm amazed at the beauty
I hope you never go off duty

the beautiful colors shining high in the air
I hope no one is unaware

how amazing you are
My evening star

Darkness returns
Sunset and mood take turns

I can barely see my golden star anymore
a cold breeze on the shore


Leaving me on a cold night
I need my magical leading light

Sunset disappearing
I can't help but interfering

But in the end
I'll see you again, my friend.

I hope you all enjoy these poems, I'm thankful I have this gift with writing, if you have any suggestions for a new poem, hit me up.