Three Days To Three Months

Three days.... three weeks.... three months

I was in the habit of reading pretty much daily, and even listen to General Conference talks during those days as well. When I was in the habit, I felt great.

I know I'm not the only one who has lost this habit of reading, praying and so forth in their lives.

Be it going through a really tough trial or addiction, that we face, that is when we need to hold onto reading, praying, daily.

I lost track of reading and I would check on my Gospel Library app (For those who don't know, this is an app that has all of the scriptures on it, teaching manuals, hymns, pretty much anything you can think of for the church, you don't even need to be a Mormon to use it, so feel free to go and install it)

I would noticed the last time I read, which was a couple of days, didn't check it for sometime, so that number went into the weeks... and when I saw it again, it started to get into the months and then I saw it at three months.

During this whole time I didn't felt great, I knew what I should of been doing, but I felt like I was not "worthy" to read or pray, but whenever you read, at least for me you feel a lot better, your day just turn into a good day, even if you have some bumps along the way for that day.

scripture time:

2nd Nephi 32:8-9 "And now, my beloved brethren, I perceive that ye ponder still in your hearts; and it grieveth me that I must speak concerning this thing. For if ye would hearken unto the Spirit which teacheth a man to pray, ye would know that ye must pray; for the evil spirit teacheth not a man to pray, but teacheth him that he must not pray.

 9 But behold, I say unto you that ye must pray always, and not faint; that ye must not perform any thing unto the Lord save in the first place ye shall pray unto the Father in the name of Christ, that he will consecrate thy performance unto thee, that thy performance may be for the welfare of thy soul."

Satan is good at what he does, he know how to make you feel like you don't matter in the sight of God, or need I say, in the sight of anyone.

He doesn't want you to develop those habits, because he knows if you do, he most likely will not have power over you.

Helaman 5:12 "And now, my sons, remember, remember that it is upon the rock of our Redeemer, who is Christ, the Son of God, that ye must build your foundation; that when the devil shall send forth his mighty winds, yea, his shafts in the whirlwind, yea, when all his hail and his mighty storm shall beat upon you, it shall have no power over you to drag you down to the gulf of misery and endless wo, because of the rock upon which ye are built, which is a sure foundation, a foundation whereon if men build they cannot fall."

I'm going to start reading General Conference talks daily, like what I was doing earlier, because along with reading scriptures and praying, reading a talk daily made me even more happy and gave me more peace,

My recent tab in the app for where I left off with reading, now says "16 hours ago" instead of "3 months ago" so it still means I need to read for today, but having it to 16 hours ago vs 3 months ago is a big improvement. So no matter where you are, go forward and get into those habits again.

Endure to the end, stay strong in the Gospel and you won't regret it

 

  

A Small Rant?- Friendboat vs Friendship

This last week was pretty fun, I went on a YSA camp out, hung out with some people from the branch, some fun conversations, me and some *friends*... I struggle at times with knowing if someone is a friend or a acquaintance

Maybe it has something to do with lack of social knowledge, people I know back in my old ward in Pasco, I know their my friends, because they have mentioned it before

There are some people in the branch, who I have just given the label "Friend" because whenever we see each other, we have  some conversations. 

But then again, when I'm having one of "Those days" because of Aspergers, I debate with the label friend... here I'll expound on this.

When I hear the word friendship, it means to me that you see  this person often and or you talk to this person regularly, 

Aghh... writing this blog, I'm trying not to offend anyone

Alright, looks like it's that time of the blog again... "Shout out to Levi" as Levi calls them haha.

We're friends, his one of the people I've just given the label too at the start, didn't really know if we were actually friends or not, we talked a couple times throughout the week, crack jokes etc. 

But for a good while, I wasn't sure if we were friends or not, I'm glad to know that he was really thankful of when he moved here a year and some months ago, that I started a conversation up with him, as I was handing out the bulletins before sacrament meeting started and then went and sat by him. 

I normally don't do that, because it's getting out of my comfort zone a lot, but that day I just happened to do it and I'm glad I did.

During the camp out, I hung out with a group of people from my branch, that was nice.. just to be in the company of some people. I don't talk a whole lot in groups but I also had some moments

one of them were doing the chubby bunny game, you basically see how many marshmallows you can fit into your mouth, one got 9 and they were saying how it was my turn, my plan was to win and get past 9, which I did.. I got 10 hah, later that night.. the person who got 9, someone put candy in front of him and he said "Well it's in front of me, I guess I'll have to eat it now" so I grabbed the bag where we spit the marshmallows into and put it in front of him, then everyone laughed and he threw the bag away haha...

I hope I didn't bugged anyone from this group I hang out with, I was wondering that during the weekend, would they be annoyed if I tag along

I would say though, that I have a harder time with knowing if a female is a acquaintance or friend, mostly every guy I talk to at the branch I have given the friend label at some point or another.

At times they feel more like friendboats and not friendships. 

a friendship, you actually hang out with this person sometimes, I was pretty nervous for when my friend Brittion came for my birthday, we hadn't seen each other since 2011 at efy, but the spending time together went quite good.. my friend Mitchell who's on his mission right now, we would spend time with each other a couple of times before he left, I was worried with how the  one on one would be like, because I never experienced that to a great deal before hand, it's something that went better then I had expected it to go

I must admit though... sometimes I do get jealous of people in the branch, being able to talk to each other  so freely, but having my little group of people I talk to weekly is nice, it's something I didn't always had in my old ward.

 didn't really had many people to hang out with, even now I don't go to many things other then church related activities. on the good note though, the 3 years being in Kennewick and the branch, I've been to more get together then my teen years, not a whole ton though.

I could probably go on more with talking about the sad and negativity of the past and all that... why should I though?.. so I'll just end it here.

I hope I didn't offend anyone from this post, if you already see us as being friends, that's great

I wasn't writing this post for pity either. 

The post just turned into a small rant about friends and acquaintances, I wonder if people without Aspergers struggle with these terms too, or does it just magically connect because their able to read each other so well?

Stay chill as a penguin everyone.

Endure to the end, stay strong in the Gospel and you won't regret it

New Poems

This poem is about eternal marriage, (a doctrine  in the  LDS church, that marriage does not end after death, but last threw the eternities, if you're sealed in the LDS Temples"

Until death do we part
Is that how God wanted marriage to end?
That after a life time with your love, everything will just fall apart?
No matter how unify you are, it won't extend

Writing on paper withers away
The power of the Priesthood is never ending
If we stay faithful, we'll be together again, past our final days
Marriage is unending

By your love for the rest of your life
This is God's plan
That death does not end, husband and wife
Hold faithful, that we may follow this plan
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Reversed poem, so once you get to the bottom, read it again from bottom going back to the top

The still small voice people say
Quietly spoken, a burning fire within
Stay close to His guidance, that he won't go away
A Warmth rushing threw your skin

He bears comfort, in the ups and downs
Bears witness of the Father and his Son
His there to protect us, listen to his sounds
Through him, we can be guided to help loved ones

By the laying of hands
We received this gift
He helps us to follow God's plans
The light of Christ helps to lift

By him, I can stand and say I believe
Through my testimony, I know this is true
By everything I've receive
This feeling is true

The Still small voice people say
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Chalk in hand, Let the art begin
Swiftly moving, the beauty within
One movement at a time
Rainbow on the skin

Drawing here and there
Thoughts on the cement
Surface once bare
The artist present

A new beginning
Staring at his art
Finding edges for thinning
He knows his colors by heart

Clouds turning shades, Keep on drawing
A smile upon his face
Rain starts falling
He knows his creation will be erased

But it's the memories which he'll keep
It what matters in this life
His morning's beauty sleep
Make the best of your life
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Poem about the temples

Holiness to the Lord
Is inscribed on every temple worldwide
We have this beacon, because the Gospel was restored
By living worthily we can go inside

Covenants and ordinances binds on earth and heaven above
People who have past and gone, can receive as well
That no soul may fall sort of, this is made possible by God's love
In the temples, God is able to dwell

Through those walls, we feel nothing but peace
Personal revelation ever clear
The spirit will not cease
We have nothing to fear

It's the closest we can be, to Heaven on earth
Strive to go often
That we may see our real worth
Our hearts may be soften

Each time we go
We learn something more
Every time we go through
Our faith soar
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Another reversed poem

Sunset, how magical you are
As bright as a golden star

Your reflections in the river
Overthrow my body with shivers


I'm amazed at the beauty
I hope you never go off duty

the beautiful colors shining high in the air
I hope no one is unaware

how amazing you are
My evening star

Darkness returns
Sunset and mood take turns

I can barely see my golden star anymore
a cold breeze on the shore


Leaving me on a cold night
I need my magical leading light

Sunset disappearing
I can't help but interfering

But in the end
I'll see you again, my friend.

I hope you all enjoy these poems, I'm thankful I have this gift with writing, if you have any suggestions for a new poem, hit me up.

God's Servants Are Called By Him

I've been thinking about making a post like this, ever since I found out that Elder L Tom Perry had past on.

I haven't always liked listening to General Conference when I was younger, but when I was a teen, I started to listen more and now I love General Conference.

The first time I ever had a question for General Conference, Elder L Tom Perry was the one who answered it, you can read about my experience with it Here

That experienced had impacted me so much that I can still hear his voice saying "My young friend has some difficult challenges. They limit him in some ways, but in other ways he is extraordinary"

He wasn't talking about me, but of a person he actually knew... but it still struck me.

I'm thankful that he was worthy to have been called as an Apostle, that Heavenly Father was able to use him to bless His children. That he was truly called of God.

When I heard that he had died, I was sad for a short moment, but was also happy because he'll be in the present of Heavenly Father, his own family who had past on, and everyone else

I know that whoever replaces Perry's and Packer's will be called of God, that we don't need to worry who they will call, because it isn't the "who" it's God who choose, by revelation they are called.

 Article of faith 5 " We believe that a man must be called of God, by prophecy, and by the laying on of hands by those who are in authority, to preach the Gospel and administer in the ordinances thereof."

There's this video which I love, and it's from a talk given by Elder L Tom Perry. I hope you enjoy it as well.

Endure to the end, stay strong in the Gospel and you won't regret it

Some Social Improvements

Last week, a friend of mine from my old family ward in Pasco came over to hang out, that was pretty nice, ha. just catching up

At one point we were talking about the video from the talent show, he was saying how I would of never done anything like that back in our home ward... and his right, I agree with him 100%. Back in my old ward, I didn't really talk to a lot of people, I had about 2-4 people I would talk to, he being one of them. I was just... a lot quieter then I am now, hah

I'm still a pretty quiet person now, but I have improved a lot. I've been talking to some more people here at YSA activities.. I wasn't really the first one to do the talking though, so I still need to work on that.. it's pretty hard ha. 

People have really been liking my poems hah, so that's great, I wrote a poem last week about the temple, I'll share it at the end of this post.

I didn't really had any ideas for this blog post, so... sorry about that haha. I'll be giving the lesson in church this week, it'd be about service, maybe I could try to write a poem for that subject.

This is my 100th post on my blog, since I started, but I stopped mid 2013 and nothing in 2014, but yeah... I'm going to share the poem about eternal marriage too, seeing temple and eternal marriage fits together, haha ;p.

 Holiness to the Lord

Is inscribed on every temple worldwide

We have this beacon, because the Gospel was resorted

By living worthily we can go inside

Covenants and ordinances binds on earth and heaven above

People who have past and gone, can receive as well

That no soul may fall sort of, this is made possible by God's love

In the temples, God is able to dwell

Through those walls, we feel nothing but peace 

Personal revelation ever clear

The spirit will not cease

We have nothing to fear

It's the closest we can be, to Heaven on earth

Strive to go often

That we may see our real worth

Our hearts may be soften

Each time we go

We learn something more

Every time we go through

Our faith soar

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Until death do we part

Is that how God wanted marriage to end?

That after a life time with your love, everything will just fall apart?

No matter how unify you are, it won't extend

Writing on paper withers away

The power of the Priesthood is never ending

If we stay faithful, we'll be together again, past our final days

Marriage is unending

By your love for the rest of your life

This is God's plan

That death does not end, husband and wife

Hold faithful, that we may follow this plan

I Hate When People Cry

I hate when people stream tears from sadness, not because I feel uncomfortable around them when they do. But because I don't want them to feel that way, I would just like to give them a hug and have the tears go away.

I haven't really faced this much though.

The first experience I had, when I was standing right next to someone who was crying..
was in EFY 2009, I was 16.

It was on Friday, the last full day of EFY. we were singing the efy medley in our group's circles. when someone started to cry.. I got an overwhelming feeling I needed to do something. I left my circle and went over to the bathroom and grab some tissues. when I was leaving, my leader asked me where I was going, I just said "I'll be right back" I came back and gave this girl and another one who was crying some tissues.

The girl who was crying first, when I tapped her on her shoulder to hand her the  tissues, she just hugged me and I felt some of her tears land on my shoulder. I will never forget that moment

Please know, that if you ever need someone to talk to, I'm always here, I'll much rather help and talk to someone, then see them face their own pains or trials by themselves.

I guess that's just the kind of guy I am.
I would just like to be able to hug your pain away, but I simply can't ha, it's not possible.


Christ, he died for us, because he loved us so much. he died so we may return and live with our Heavenly Father again. He did all of this... out of love

First Nephi 19:9 "And the world, because of their iniquity, shall judge him to be a thing of naught; wherefore they scourge him, and he suffereth it; and they smite him, and he suffereth it. Yea, they spit upon him, and he suffereth it, because of his loving kindness and his long-suffering towards the children of men."

He knows every pain you're going through, turn to him for help, his Atonement isn't just for repenting. he is the perfect example of love and compassion, among many other things.



Endure to the end, stay strong in the Gospel and you won't regret it